Well July is coming to an end, and I have moved out of my dad’s house, which was way more emotional than I ever thought it was going to be at age 24. I have moved in with two of friends who I have known for half my life. I am becoming gluten free (not by choice), my best friend gets married in a few month, our Wi-Fi is horrible in our little townhome, and I have been disappointed by someone who I always thought I could count on, so that’s just some of the things that have happened in the past couple of months.
I have really started to review my past couple months, and that time has given me some amazing up’s and some incredible down’s. I don’t think I imagined that the hardest year of my life would be followed up by another challenging year, but I have continued to learn and grow from the experiences. I think one of the lines that I read over and over again as I type is “I have been disappointed by someone who I always thought I could count on.” This is something I have debated writing about for many months now, and I have grown almost numb to the situation. Numb is such a sad way to feel about this since I could count on this person for most of my life. I could sit here and tell you how mad or hurt I am, but I can’t because to me the feeling of grieving this situation has come to an end. I cannot grieve any longer and I don’t want to spend anymore time being angry.
If I have learned anything in these past two years, it is never turn your back on the people who have supported you because they will pick you up in your weakest moments. Stop worrying about what everyone else thinks of you. It’s how you see yourself in the mirror in the morning that really counts! Never be embarrassed to ask for help because it does not make you weak, and most importantly never forget to love, whether that love is for family or friends, to fall in love again, or to find a new love for something in your life.
Never forget to love; it is the strongest feeling that will help you get through all the hurt, anger, sadness, or the rebuilding the life you once thought you had or the new life you might be starting.
People disappoint us every day; we just have to figure out how to live with that.
Much Love,
Molly