Those last words: when ending a friendship, a relationship, or just moving on--think about those last words you said to someone. Do you ever think you wish you could change what you said, or maybe just said one more thing then everything would have been better, different, or more peaceful?
I think about this a lot; I am an over thinker. I worry more about how everyone is feeling, trying to make sure I did not hurt anyone, and trying to make sure everything is settled before I worry about myself-I think I get this trait from my mother (Thanks Mom)!
Back to those last words, who is that person in your life that you remember the last thing you said? Remember, you are never going to be able to go back and have that last word. I have thought about it, and I have written in my journal. There are a couple of people who maybe I regret that last word I said to them, but of course some standout more than others. I dwell on it every day, and I feel hateful, hurt, sad, and happy: every emotion because I never got to say the real last word. Well here it is-Here are my last words:
To whoever may be reading this:
I am sorry. I am sorry that everything fell apart in front of a lot of people! I am just truly and really sorry. I am thankful for everything, for showing me how beautiful this healing process can be. I hope it’s beautiful for you as well, but most importantly, I think my last words might be explained better with the song: “Hello Goodbye.”
I hope you all can see that it’s not easy to heal, but the healing process is a beautiful. Some days you may take three steps forward, and ten steps back, but always keep moving! I am the first one to understand you may not always get a chance to say those last words. My advice is write them down, yell them while you are alone, listen to music, just get them out. Because as soon as you say them, it’s done, don’t dwell any longer, live life in this beautiful crazy healing process, and love every second of it. Most importantly never stop fighting!
With so much love,
Molly Francis
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AuthorYou can call me Molly Francis; I am a wine drinker, full time workaholic, and relationship abuse survivor. Archives
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